This post will have nothing to do with the Eminem single that rose Dido high and up in to the limelight in the earls 00s… Even though I’ve ironically been subjected to listen to that artist’s ‘noise’ over the past few days at work!
Today, I want to write about the autobiography of Stan Collymore; a former-Premier League footballer (soccer player) who, later on in his short-lived career, received a diagnosis of borderline personality disorder.
This isn’t the kind of music I would usually select to share. It’s far too ‘charty’ for my preferences and I hear almost daily on the radio at work (via stations I’m unwillingly forced to listen to by my colleagues… Yes stations as it the plural sense!).
A few weeks ago, I went to the cinema alone to watch Edge of Tomorrow. It was a late showing and, in fact, I think it was the first night of the film’s release. I really quite enjoyed the film, unsure of what to expect as I don’t tend to keep an eye out for Tom Cruise films. I’ll spare you the ending to the story but I’ll recommend you take an opportunity to see it if you like a bit of action and sci-fi ideas. It’s not going to be my ‘Film of 2014‘ but I really enjoyed it.
As the credits begin to roll, this is the song that begins to play and I was very surprised by this. I mean, I almost felt as if they’d ‘lowered’ themselves with such a selection. I’m too accustomed to hearing tunes I don’t recognise but, in taking note of the lyrics, I see how apt they are. I’ve no idea whether this song was written for the film or what but if you’re already aware of the prologue then you’ll know that Tom Cruise basically has to relive the same day over and over… A bit like Groundhog Day, but with more guns and a vertically-challenged lead character. And, with a female starring opposite him, there’s bound to be some kind of love/chemistry happening in this film at some point, right? That’s where the lyrics come in but I won’t say any more!
…Except for the fact that I’m a bit in love with Emily Blunt now!!
Seriously, where did she come from? She’s certainly not related to that male singer and I have seen her in another film with Matt Damon. She’s only a year or two older than me but, sadly, like most of Hollywood’s finest females, she’s already married. On top of that, I think she also gave birth to her first child before filming this. Ah, well. :-P
First day of the week; second day in a brand-new month and it’s time for me to share the latest reflections of my mind that have come about within the last 24 hours.
Friendship (Photo credit: fabbriciuse)
Sunday was EPIC, as far as achievements go. I completed an incredible challenge and left the event feeling great for that. Except, along with those feelings of elation, there existed a cloud of sorrow, sadness and missing out. A formation comparatively minute in size, yet impossible to ignore; the evident dark splodge in an otherwise celestial clear blue sky.
Okay. So I feel an urge to write this evening. This post is lacking the pre-emptive clarity and layout that usually precedes my writing. But, if I don’t do it now, I might not do it tomorrow.
I’d like to start by thanking everyone who has responded to my previous posts and not forgetting those who have merely clicked Like or taken the time to read through my words. Writing has helped. My week is improving as the days go by. Thank you.
So, I recently wrote a post about noises in the social situations that disturb and distract me, as a sufferer of social anxiety. Possibly the best example I’ve seen that demonstrates my own vision of this comes from the film Bruce Almighty. I’d been hoping to find a video clip of the restaurant scene (if you’ve seen the film then you’ll know it). There is one on YouTube but, without sound, it’s quite irrelevant. The video I have found gives you a taster but I want to reassure you that I don’t hear individual voices. In fact, I don’t focus on any one conversation in particular. It’s more of a ‘blur’ or stream of noise, voice and sound.
I hope it helps to make sense and that maybe someone else can relate. It’s not something that’s occurred recently and only arise on the busiest of occasions (perhaps at a city centre festival or a large indoor event).
He’s back again! I don’t know how long it’s been but he seemed to arrive suddenly yesterday, during the late-afternoon/evening. Anxiety. Fear. Hopelessness. However I like to label it, he’s here with me again right now.
Things are generally good with me at the moment and have been for a while now. When I say ‘good’, what I mean is that life’s bearable. I’m coping. I’m not living ‘the time of my life’ for every second as that would be unrealistic and exhausting! Instead, I’m finding ways to challenge myself, stepping out in to new experiences and continuously practising the art of mindfulness; attempting to questioning less.
In the past week or so, I’ve suffered a bit of personal heart-ache after trying to reach out to someone with newly-unearthed feelings but the fact is they’re not mutual and, well, I’ve since learned something about this person has affected my view of her!
Today, this evening and right now, I’d like to raise a topic that I’ve been wanting to discuss for several weeks. I’m hoping this is something that many other anxiety sufferers will be able to relate to. Today, I’d like to talk about noise, to ask how it might affect you and hopefully for us to share some of our coping techniques.