Well, it probably comes as no surprise to the majority of people reading this which band I’ve chosen to write this letter to… 😉 I might even write a second letter though, as there is another (solo) artist who has helped and inspired me throughout the last nine-years since I first discovered his own music away from the band he is (was) commonly associated with.
I must admit that I’m neglecting my 30 Days of Truth Challenge at the moment. Partly because of how low my mood was for the past couple of days but, even today, after conquering two giant hills and feeling much better, I’m unable to think of one thing that people never seem to compliment me on (Day 12).
That’s not to suggest that I receive total praise and credit where it’s due. I just can’t think of it right now.
So, let’s have a look at where I’ve been today…
I want to try and keep this one going as a positive post because I’ve done well to drag myself out of bed, out of the house and out in to the fresh air of the Somerset countryside. Ever since I finished work yesterday lunchtime though, my mood has been on a steady decline. I spent the afternoon sleeping on top of my bed; I couldn’t even be bothered to walk the dog. My evening was no more pro-active and I was struggling to get going today. Even when I left the house, I wasn’t really in the mood and this usually changes once I’m out and about…
Maybe I’m finally getting bored of my own company? I have thoughts of not having to return to work until Thursday but still, I know I’m going to spend this time on my own. Maybe it was the setting?
Whatever the cause, I’m feeling low today and, not for the first time since I’ve been in counselling, I’m finding myself unable to crawl down and ‘hide away’ in my secret, safe space. It’s surrounded by nature; buried beneath a layer of leaves and grass. Inside, it is dark but, the walls are warm and earthly. Now, it’s as if someone’s concreted over and filled it in. I cannot break through, I cannot get in. I’m left stand out in the cold, exposed, feeling the way that I do right now.
Anyway, let’s have a look at where I went today…
We all know that writing your own blog and keeping it updated regularly can be difficult enough, especially in times where the thoughts may not be coming; no matter how you want those words to appear on the screen, it just doesn’t happen. Doing the thirty-days of truth challenge certainly helps to create new content regularly but, I find it as difficult to keep up with all the other blogs I follow.
I think I have around sixty WordPress followers of this site (the rest are made up of followers by e-mail and Twitter) and I follow the majority of them. I prefer to receive e-mail notifications in my inbox of new posts – if I’m away from the site for a day or two then, there’s the risk that I could miss something by only using the Reader, here on WordPress. When I started, this wasn’t too bad. But, as the number of blogs I follow has increased, the unread messages in my inbox have been piling up.
If you go to your Reader (hover over the ‘W’ icon in the top left and select ‘Reader’, then ‘Edit List’, below the header), you’ll see that you can alter the frequency of how often these messages are received. Mine all started off as Instant. Then, as the numbers grew, I reassigned the more regular bloggers to ‘Daily’ updates. Now though, I’ve put everyone on to ‘Weekly’ e-mail updates.
Scroll down below the Topics on your left and you’ll see ‘Email Delivery Settings’. This is where you can alter the default settings for any new blog you follow, so you don’t have to keep returning to this page each time you find a new blog you like.
This feels more comfortable as I received a stack of e-mails once a week and, I’ll casually work my way through them; starting with the oldest posts and ending with the newest. I might only read two or three blogs a day but, it feels better organised, with less overlap between unread messages.
So, if you read my blog and you know that I’m also following you but, you don’t see me hitting that ‘Like’ button or leaving a comment then, I hope you can now understand why. I am still reading, it’s just my new form of organisation 🙂
This is only my method for keeping on top of things. Other people like the reader, which is equally fine.
This week, I had my first counselling session for almost three-weeks. We’d agreed to take a break after six straight sessions together and, it was clear by that time that I’d already made significant progress and that I was becoming a more relaxed person. During the break, I must admit that I’ve let my meditation routine slip. I’ll do it one night but then, maybe not for another four days or more… Thinking right now, I can’t remember listening to either of them since Sunday! But, I seem to be okay.
I was keen not to ‘give up’ just yet as there were two major issues in my life that I wanted to try and talk about and, I’ll try to elaborate on these a little with this post.
‘Some-thing‘ only has to be ‘one thing‘ and that doesn’t have to be ‘the number one‘ item on my list either because, I’m not quite sure of what that is!
I had a little bit of a ramble earlier with some of the niggling fears I’m still feeling after attending my writing course this week and, to prove that I am in a rather positive mood at the moment, I want to share with you one of my favourite songs at the moment.
It is by Incubus, of course and, it’s been high on my iPod’s playlist for… Well, when did the album come out? Last summer?!
It’s not so much for the lyrics with this one; it’s the mood, tempo and feeling. You may not think much of it at first (and, it is different to all of their previous work) but, I believe that it is worth seeing through until the end (it is also a LIVE recording).