This one has been sat in my drafts folder for a number of weeks now. I know that I’ve had situations in the past where I didn’t get praised for things I felt were going un-noticed. That was in a previous job (or two) but now, that aspect of my work receives better respect (even if I don’t always receive direct or sincere appraisal for it). I’ve been thinking of how to answer this one and, very recently, I came to the realisation that I’m not even sure who I would be seeking the appraisal(s) from…
Someone at work? A family member? Non-existent friend?! Some I meet or have met through a dating website?
Day 12 – Something I Never Get Compliments On
A rather obvious one would be that no-one else can genuinely see how difficult it is for me to get up out of bed and face each day as it comes. Even more so, when I take a step outside the front door and go to work or, even on one of my walking day trips. My counsellor has praised me for it in the past but, again, depression and anxiety are the kind of symptoms that others will recognise unless they’ve been affected themselves.
I don’t always enjoy my job. I dislike the company I work for and I don’t intend to stick with this forever. But, I take a lot of pride in what I do and certain people do notice it. I sometimes get a ‘warm’ word from a supervisor but higher management will walk right past without even saying hello. It doesn’t feel like a company in which I could naturally progress. I’m one of the few people in this firm with skills and previous experience but, like all the rest; I’m not employed for that. It’s not appreciated as we’re often expected to do things ‘their way’. So, that’s something.
Before I worked where I am now, people would criticise me for not being aware of things going on around me. Quite the opposite was true though, and my own paranoia/anxieties would often leave me feeling as though I had to ‘avoid’ altering things in case someone else noticed and questioned it, regardless of my core beliefs on the matter. Now, I’m one of the first to spot a mistake in other peoples’ work and I’m often first to report an error somewhere down the production line, as soon as I spot it. But, that’s as far as it goes.
I’m struggling to think of anything else…
It would be nice if more people complimented me on my hair – or, at the very least, stopped mocking me for it. It doesn’t bother me as much as it might’ve done a few years ago (my hair’s quite long, for a guy and it’s also quite thick and a bit curly). Maybe I seek acceptance rather than praise for this? We’re all different and we each have our own ways of expressing ourselves.
That’s all I have.