As I mentioned in my previous post that included a music (still) video, I’m hurting a bit today. I hold nothing against her for calling off our day out. I’m not upset with her personally; I’m just struggling to accept the emptiness I feel in the rest of my life (I can feel the tears coming as I type that so, it can’t be far off from the truth).
After (discreetly, as my mum was around) letting out a few tears for the first time in a long while (not to forget the many foot-lengths of snot – always, with the snot!!), I turned to my laptop for condolence. I must have cried for a good fifteen minutes and, then again, within that same hour…
Anyway, I felt a compulsive urge to return to the dating sites I’ve been ignoring for the past week or so since my six-month subcription to Match.com expired. I’d received a couple of e-mails offering renewal at a discounted rate and, yep, I decided to take up a three-month offer at 30% less than standard.
As I logged in, I noticed that I’d received ninety-five views since my last login on the 8th of November!! I’m not even sure if I came close to that within the previous six-months I’d paid for! Add to that, the e-mail I received a few days ago saying that someone had added me to their favourites and, well, you might imagine that I had something to look forward to…
It turned out that half of my viewers were based as far north as SCOTLAND!! One even came from Belfast! Sadly, there was no WeeGee from London 😉 but the majority of these new-viewers were in to their forties; almost twenty years my seniors! :-S
That ‘fan’ of mine no longer seemed to exist. I assume it was another temporary thing (just like the last one), where they changed their mind within twenty-four hours or, perhaps realised that they had only ‘favourited’ me whilst drunk! 😛 I suspect that my last wink came that way; received at half-past midnight on a Sunday morning…
Maybe it’ll be a good thing. I mean, I just joined that site for the first time a year ago and I’d like to think that other new faces will come looking for love in the run-up to Christmas this year as well. I must try harder not to become so ‘obsessive’ with it though… If I don’t hear from anyone or, receive an appealing match in my daily shortlist then, I’ll try to check the site and its membership only twice a week (at least once in between weekends). Otherwise, I’m really going to make myself ill.
It seems like a scam; flogging your profile to all and everyone in the hope that you’ll gain hope in the obscene number recent views to your profile during your absence, just to get cash from your fingers. If I can’t talk to women in the real world though, what hope do I have left online?
- He’s making me fall in love with him again… (ifhappyeverafterdidexist.wordpress.com)
- Being broken (druidlife.wordpress.com)
- Running with kleenex (autopilotlegs.com)
- Those things that hurt the most (nanettethomas.com)
- I wonder if u hurt like me (codenameday.wordpress.com)