Back to Bed

My posting has been infrequent here lately and it’s even more rare to find a second post from me within the same day. Usually, it’s not a great sign. Or, at least, an indication that something is troubling me.

After writing my previous post this morning, I felt as though I was lying to myself. Although I didn’t write it, I wanted to try and portray the message that I was okay with having nothing to do today and no-one to see… I wasn’t. I haven’t been alright. In fact, since I woke up this morning after my most disruptive night’s sleep for several weeks, I’ve felt like bursting in to tears on several occasions. Continue reading

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Folk Friday

Now I have little time to sit down and write, I’ve decided to tell you a little bit about my Friday night from last week.

A good friend of mine had invited me to an evening of live music at the Grain Barge a few weeks ago and that’s where we ended up again; similar kind of music but different, still-local bands playing.

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Seven-Day Reflection – 03/02/2013

I hope that no-one’s too concerned with my recurring absence from this blog. Honestly, it’s nothing to worry about. If there really was a problem, I’d tell you about it, right here. I’ve noticed that other bloggers enjoy a break from ‘the screens’ every now and again and that’s really all I’m doing. I miss you all and I miss reading what you’ve been up to. While there’s still an hour left of this morning (another lazy lie-in), I’m going to try to catch up with who and what I can.

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For today’s post, I’d like to take inspiration from my friend Linda’s blog, who writes weekly about the little victories she makes in her battle for recovery. I’m not as dedicated to the same cause but, lacking in inspiration or ideas to write anything else, I’d like to share some of the positive triumphs I’ve made in the past seven-days.

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Poem: Forever Young (Daily Prompt)

If there were a real Fountain of Youth, would you drink the water?

This is the first time I’ve attempted to write something based on a  Daily Prompt but, as I sit here, still awaiting news of how and when I can collect my van from the MOT test today (they’ve had it since Friday), I thought I’d give it a go. With a poem, naturally. I must also thank hastywords for directing my attention to this regular feature on WordPress. 🙂

‘Forever Young’

It doesn’t have to be this way
Your future lies ahead
One path set out in front of you
This concrete hasn’t set

Please, find the strength
Within yourself
This way, with me
For better health

Remember LOST?
That mysterious land
With Richard Alpert
Immortality, from Jacob’s hand

The island’s gone
But there’s still hope
Just one more hill
And down the slope

We can go back
There is still time
We’ll start again
Forever, yours and mine

Please, take a sip
You must go first
I’ll be right behind you
Please, quench your thirst

Diet

I haven’t made many posts about food on this blog and, following on from a bit of an absence recently due to technical problems at my end (things are looking okay at the moment – touch wood), I feel like just going with this right now and telling you a bit about my diet for the past week.

There’s no doubt about it and, this is something I may’ve touched on before. Since I moved back in to my mum’s house in August, my diet has become anything but fully organised and, with that, there’s always the risk that my health (in some capacity) may have suffered as a consequence.

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The Placebo Effect

It’s so late on a Friday night that it’s almost Saturday but, I wanted to ask whether anyone else in the UK saw the Derren Brown‘s show on Channel 4?

Last week was the second part in his ‘Apocalypse’ experiment. I forget the title of tonight’s show but, it was all about the placebo effect taking a brand new pill apparently created to relieve a sufferer of their fear.

Okay, so, the truth is a little different – these pills don’t do anything; it’s all allowing yourself to rise up above your fears. But, if you haven’t seen it, I would highly recommend watching. If you don’t catch it on E4, C4, More4 or 4Seven very soon then, you should be able to watch it online some (4OD – On Demand although, I’ve never used it).

I don’t really have much else to say and I certainly don’t wish to spoil the episode for anyone who might intend to watch it. Although, I did feel I could relate to Nick who suffered from social anxiety but, perhaps more so, the woman, Katie, who talked about a fear of being able to sing even in her own home because someone might hear her… Watch it!. 🙂

It’s Friday

Tonight, I was going to sit down and start writing about my all-too-brief ‘dating’ experience at the beginning of this year. It’s something that lightly came up recently in a Twitter conversation with a friend and, I feel as though I might benefit right now from writing it all out and reflecting on it all again. There were highs and crushing lows but, I’m really not in the mood tonight.

If I was to try and describe my symptoms to you, it would read like a form of depression. Lack of appetite, energy and enthusiasm. This cold that’s been on-the-brew for the last twenty-four hours isn’t helping and it has the potential to ruin my plans for a few hours of adventure over the weekend. I’m normally quite bad on a Friday anyway, from the minute my working week ends at lunchtime. Recently, I’ve set myself up with a few hours to look forward to each Saturday but, I think it’s that persistent feeling of ‘loneliness’; my realisation that, after a long, hard week at work, I get a chance to relax and take a break but, it’s never quite going to be what I hope it could be.

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