Another Bleadon Hill

After my ‘rest day’ yesterday, I was back out walking again this morning. I always try and aim to get going a little earlier each time but, as is usual by now, I didn’t arrive at the car park for this one until 11.25, which gave me five-minutes to change my shoes and set off ‘on time’. I was able to find this space without printing out a driving map and taking that with me. For the last few weeks, I’ve been more concerned with my walking routes. Studying Google Maps for some time really does help and I feel confident enough to trust my memory with the drives there (getting back is always easy). Again, the Street View allows you to see many things up close before you leave, including any notable ‘land marks’ that you can use to identify un-marked turnings and road junctions and, on this occasion, I was able to spot the bridleway I needed to find at the beginning of the walk.

8 Wild Walks Across the Mendip Hills

From there, I was able to use a small map for the rest of the walk, which came as part of a book I bought recently. 8 Wild Walks Across the Mendip Hills was only £5 from a local book shop last week (first time I’d been in there and I feel good having done that) and it provides you with enough detail to find your way around (it’s a lot better than the AA map I struggled with a fortnight ago, anyway…).

Walking route for Bleadon Hill.

Today, I set off to Bleadon Hill near Weston-super-Mare.

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Day 27 – What’s the Best Thing Going for You Right Now?

It’s late. Very late. Midnight has passed and, already, Sunday is here. I should be heading to bed for my last lie-in before another five-days of early starts but, I’m sat here, trying to make amends for the ‘weakness’ I’ve shown in my previous post.

Day 27 – The Best Thing Going for Me Right Now

Leading on from my last post, I’d like to say that it’s the fact that I’m a ‘genuine’ guy, whatever that means, hahaha…

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Up High but Down Low

I want to try and keep this one going as a positive post because I’ve done well to drag myself out of bed, out of the house and out in to the fresh air of the Somerset countryside. Ever since I finished work yesterday lunchtime though, my mood has been on a steady decline. I spent the afternoon sleeping on top of my bed; I couldn’t even be bothered to walk the dog. My evening was no more pro-active and I was struggling to get going today. Even when I left the house, I wasn’t really in the mood and this usually changes once I’m out and about…

Maybe I’m finally getting bored of my own company? I have thoughts of not having to return to work until Thursday but still, I know I’m going to spend this time on my own. Maybe it was the setting?

Whatever the cause, I’m feeling low today and, not for the first time since I’ve been in counselling, I’m finding myself unable to crawl down and ‘hide away’ in my secret, safe space. It’s surrounded by nature; buried beneath a layer of leaves and grass. Inside, it is dark but, the walls are warm and earthly. Now, it’s as if someone’s concreted over and filled it in. I cannot break through, I cannot get in. I’m left stand out in the cold, exposed, feeling the way that I do right now.

Anyway, let’s have a look at where I went today…

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Poem: ‘Amazing Blaise’

‘Amazing Blaise’

It had been so long
Eighteen-years and counting
But the journey to reach you
Felt like climbing a mountain

I was afraid.
So long, I had waited
But, setting off from the car park
My breath was already baited!

It seemed unfamiliar, until the museum
Inside, it all came back to me
The history, paintings, Mr.Hughes and the caning!
One look outside, the estate was waiting!

I found my own trail and began to explore
My camera was ready and I kept finding more!

But the castle was hidden, along with both caves
I used my own compass but, wasn’t sure of the way

Then, when I found you, my dream was achieved
That sense of achievement and all I’d believed

Now, I set off with new sites to explore
But, at Blaise Castle, there will always be MORE!

One day, I’ll return, just to see you inside
I hope to bring with me a friend and our pride

Winter’s Coming

Here in the UK, we’re already almost four-days in to the autumn season. That means that the days are already getting shorter and, with winter on the way, the temperature should soon be on the decline as well. It’s depressing to think about, I know. There’s even a disorder for people who’s moods are affected by this time of the year, known commonly as SAD.

Like a lot of people, I find the winter months to be very difficult at times. You wake up in the dark, spend all the daylight hours at work and come home to total darkness at the end of each day. It’s hard to find a life outside of this twilight and, I find it even more difficult to maintain my enthusiasm and motivate myself to do anything in the evenings.

It is something that’s already concerning. But, with the positive steps forward that I’ve already made recently in improving myself and building on my self-esteem, I’ve decided to try and plan ahead now. Sometimes, planning and too much thought can lead to greater anxiety later but, this is one situation where I do not feel that being ‘spontaneous’ in my actions would be the best option.

Please feel free to chip in with your own thoughts and suggestions along the way. All comments are welcome. 🙂

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