Whenever I e-mail a friend (the ones I e-mail are the ones I’m closest to, as it’s my best way of expressing myself), I regularly forget to include subjects paragraphs (talking points, if you will). My messages can be long enough even in their incomplete state (you should know that from having read followed blog) but I realised after writing a post here, yesterday (last year, hahaha!) that I forgot to share a big thinking-point that I’d come up with during my hours of contemplation.
I haven’t written (finished) any poetry for a while so, I literally just typed this up following on from my last post, without even consulting my notebook. Now, I have a bit of a headache, to accompany my fractured heart.
Holding on when I should let go
Before I do, I’d like you to know
That if and in a time of need
You need someone, I’ll mount my steed
For I do not believe your love
Is any more than hiding ‘side a glove
You used to talk but now don’t share
There is no reason, I do still care
Friendship’s hard when there is no other
I saw, crying, with your brother
Your life should be full of happiness
Instead, you’re back in that same old mess
I want to move and ease my heartache
Instead, I’m stuck here, about to break.
I am planning to complete one of my final 30 Day challenges this weekend but, in the mean time, I’d like to ramble on about something else.
So many people seem to believe in ‘fate‘. I find it hard to; I’d even say that I do not believe and yet, I’m not aware of anyone else I know who feels the same way. When I’ve talked about love and relationships with my counsellor, she’s gone on to end each conversation to say that there is someone out there for me and that I will meet them… How and why hasn’t it already happened?!
Maybe I have the definition all wrong… To me, fate is where you end up following near-pre-determined paths in life that lead to places and situations you are unable to avoid. It’s as if your story’s already been written and you’re acting it out, through each scene and chapter, consciously unaware.