Happy?

Having just logged in to my account for the first time this week, I’ve received a notification to say that my blog is now officially one-year old! It’s a twelve month period that’s gone by pretty fast, even during the recent times where I haven’t been here regularly enough to write.

My blog is one-year old this month!

It’s true that I haven’t had an awful lot to write about or, where I have wanted to write spontaneously, I haven’t been able to sit down here and do that. Perhaps I should finally invest in a small notebook to at least keep the thoughts on record? We take a week off from the CBT course this week because of the Bank Holiday (I hope you’ve all had a good one) with the final session to come next Monday. In order to put something new on these pages, I am going to write this evening, about a situation that has signified some of the positive change within me.

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Back to Bed

My posting has been infrequent here lately and it’s even more rare to find a second post from me within the same day. Usually, it’s not a great sign. Or, at least, an indication that something is troubling me.

After writing my previous post this morning, I felt as though I was lying to myself. Although I didn’t write it, I wanted to try and portray the message that I was okay with having nothing to do today and no-one to see… I wasn’t. I haven’t been alright. In fact, since I woke up this morning after my most disruptive night’s sleep for several weeks, I’ve felt like bursting in to tears on several occasions. Continue reading

Acceptance

There’s one issue in my life that’s been quite a ‘theme’ for this blog in recent months and it’s not something I’ve openly written much about lately. There are a few individuals who I’ve confided in with this (you each know who you are) and I appreciate every effort you have made to just be there and support me and my own thoughts.

Now, it’s time for me to make my own decision. In fact, it’s one that I’ve already made…

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‘Over the Bridge’ (Re-worked Lyrics)

I’ve changed a few of the lyrics but not all. If you want to see the originals, please click here. Credit to the Red Hot Chili Peppers.

‘Over the Bridge’

Most times I feel
Like I don’t have a partner
Most times I feel
Like my only friend
Is the woman I live for
Descended of Angels
Lonely as I am
Together we cry

I thrive on her feeds
‘Cause she’s my companion
I breathe for her dreams
‘Cause she knows who I am
She sees my good deeds and
She keeps me at distance
I never worry
Now that is a lie

I don’t ever wanna feel
Like I did that day
Take me to a place we love
Take me all the way
I don’t ever want to feel
Like I did that day
Take me to a place we love
Take me all that way (yeah yeah yeah)

It’s hard to believe
That there’s nobody out there
It’s hard to believe
That I’m all alone
I wish I had her love
Afraid, does she love me?
Lonely as I am
Together we cry

I don’t ever wanna feel
Like I did that day
Take me to a place we love
Take me all the way
I don’t ever want to feel
Like I did that day
Take me to a place we  love
Take me all the way (yeah yeah yeah)
Ooh no (no no yeah yeah)
Love me I say yeah yeah

Over the bridge downtown
Is where I drove and stood
Over the bridge “
This life just feels too much
Over the bridge “
Forgot about my love
Over the bridge “
I made my choice to stay (yeah yeah yeah)
Ooh no (no no yeah yeah)
Here I stay yeah yeah

Here I stay…

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