‘Epiphany’ – Staind

Although I still have a level of admiration towards this band, each time I see the name ‘Staind‘, my head begins to drop even before I’ve heard that first chord of any of their songs. They’re a band almost synonymous with depression at times. That’s how I’ve always remembered them.

I mentioned last time, with my previous video share, that there was one Staind song on the Break the Cycle album that I was afraid to listen to 12 years ago… Well, this is it!

To fully appreciate the contrast of this song against the rest of their CD, I think you’d have to listen to the studio recordings, where I’ve chosen to share a live acoustic set version with you today (as I also did with It’s Been Awhile). It’s not as ‘hard’ as many of the others.

Listening to this song again didn’t feel painful at all. In my teens, I would instantly draw up an image of a barren landscape beneath grey clouds and filled with mist. Quite like I imagine the lower points of the Grand Canyon to be, but with green rocks. It was lonely and I can still see that image in my mind today.

If you’d like to read through the lyrics for yourself, please find them below. Just so you know though; neither this song or any lyrics bear any relevance to my current state of mind. I appreciate that I’m being very quiet at the moment but I ask you to trust that I’m okay. 🙂

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‘Friends and Lovers’ (Incubus)

I’m suffering a bit right now, feeling a lot of emptiness after having shed a few tears nearly two-hours ago. Today, I was supposed to meet up with my best friend for the first time in over three months; five-months to the day since we first met in person. She’s had to call it off as she’s been in some physical pain this week, which I completely respect and understand, having injured my back twice in the last fortnight alone.

I might go in to more detail on this later this evening. For now, I’d like to share this song with you, which came up through my YouTube feed earlier, while waiting to hear from her:

I love this line (or two):

“What’s wrong with you is good
For what’s wrong with me”

That’s always spoken volumes to me for the way I feel about her and my attraction to someone with bipolar disorder. I’ve started reading a book written from the experiences of loving and caring for someone with the condition. I don’t mean to make it sound as though it’s unhealthy in any way; it just summarises how I feel we made one of our first connections.

 

Day 24 – Make a Playlist to Someone

You probably know it as well as I do; there’s only one person right know who I’m going create this playlist for and that’s ‘May’. The one person I love; the one person I will never be able to love. I haven’t quite decided how to do this but, I think I’ll start by posting a list of songs first, followed by the text to explain why. It’s going to be a list of songs that, in my mind, depicts the timeline of our abstract friendship since the beginning of May.

Day 24 – Make a Playlist to Someone and Explain Why You Chose All the Songs

(Just Post the Titles, Artists and Letter)

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