I had intended to join in with a group activity event today. It’s something I do quite regularly and I still owe many thanks to ‘B’ (if ever she reads this) for suggesting the idea AND finding the information five years ago.
I could be off now, trying to do something on my own… Instead, I’ve chosen to sit here and write. Partly so that I can hide away from the world but also, in an attempt to save myself from too much inner suffering and slaughter.
As the weekends arrive with the passing of each working week, I’m finding it increasingly more difficult to remove myself from under the duvet.
Image found on Instagram and is not my own.
Getting up in the morning is proving to be hard. Now, I could blame many aspects for this, including the time of year – but the weather, for one, is quite mild considering we’re almost halfway in to December. More importantly; I’m working to remind myself to be emotionally responsible and intelligent, with regards to my feelings.
It is not because of anything or anyone external that I am struggling to get out of bed. It is me.
Instead of dwelling on that, I’m going to try and write about how to I look for ways to get me going each Saturday and Sunday.
I haven’t felt much like writing this evening and I find it kind of strange that I feel inclined to post this now, when I should be heading to bed. No new words have appeared on the single page that is currently my short story – due to be shared with the rest of the class in less than eight days’ time! But, on the way to work this morning (it’s been almost twenty-four hours?!), I heard this song on the radio and I wanted to share it with you… Right now. I couldn’t done it earlier but, here you go.
Journey get a lot of stick when, in my opinion, they are (or were) a really good band. I don’t know; they seem to change quite frequently and I remember hearing that their singer (Steve Perry?) left the band again several months ago. I don’t particularly like ‘that song‘, which is one of the sole reasons people tend to despise them, which is also cruel. They are ‘softer’ than many other rock bands and, they do preach a Christian message of faith throughout. But, I think they’re brilliant and, this one song is one of my favourites; something I first heard around the time that I broke up with my ex; a song that inspired me to buy their Greatest Hits album.
I had another favourite before this. Perhaps I’ll share that one on a different day. 😉
Please read on if you’d like to see the lyrics. Oh, and my apologies to anyone who really doesn’t like Journey!! 😛
Tonight, I was going to sit down and start writing about my all-too-brief ‘dating’ experience at the beginning of this year. It’s something that lightly came up recently in a Twitter conversation with a friend and, I feel as though I might benefit right now from writing it all out and reflecting on it all again. There were highs and crushing lows but, I’m really not in the mood tonight.
If I was to try and describe my symptoms to you, it would read like a form of depression. Lack of appetite, energy and enthusiasm. This cold that’s been on-the-brew for the last twenty-four hours isn’t helping and it has the potential to ruin my plans for a few hours of adventure over the weekend. I’m normally quite bad on a Friday anyway, from the minute my working week ends at lunchtime. Recently, I’ve set myself up with a few hours to look forward to each Saturday but, I think it’s that persistent feeling of ‘loneliness’; my realisation that, after a long, hard week at work, I get a chance to relax and take a break but, it’s never quite going to be what I hope it could be.