I’ve been sat here for the last hour or so, trying to decide on what to write for today’s post while distracting myself with other things (YouTube, Facebook, etc.). I think I’ve had three different thoughts for themes yet now, I can’t remember a single one of them. So, I’m just going to write about my morning and whatever’s on my mind…
(I think that’s a warning that this isn’t going to be a positive post!)
I’ve just been catching up with my personal subscription feed on YouTube when this video popped up today. It’s always been one of my favourite Incubus songs among many others. I first saw this particular recording as part of the band’s Morning View SessionsDVD. It was the first time the song really spoke to me; the way Brandon omits some of the lyrics towards the end – you don’t get that on the studio recording and they’ve since done even better (Alive at Red Rocks, 2004, with bass-player Ben Kenney providing the vocals at the same point).
I experienced a sensation of warmth the day I met ‘May‘. Since then, I’ve found myself feeling cold, far too often.
I’m suffering a bit right now, feeling a lot of emptiness after having shed a few tears nearly two-hours ago. Today, I was supposed to meet up with my best friend for the first time in over three months; five-months to the day since we first met in person. She’s had to call it off as she’s been in some physical pain this week, which I completely respect and understand, having injured my back twice in the last fortnight alone.
I might go in to more detail on this later this evening. For now, I’d like to share this song with you, which came up through my YouTube feed earlier, while waiting to hear from her:
I love this line (or two):
“What’s wrong with you is good
For what’s wrong with me”
That’s always spoken volumes to me for the way I feel about her and my attraction to someone with bipolar disorder. I’ve started reading a book written from the experiences of loving and caring for someone with the condition. I don’t mean to make it sound as though it’s unhealthy in any way; it just summarises how I feel we made one of our first connections.
This comes only a few days after my nomination and I must first say a huge THANK YOU to ‘Ellie’ over at Anxious Elephant. As she says in her own acceptance post, it is uplifting in itself to have someone refer to you as ‘inspiring’. I haven’t felt anywhere close to my best on a regular basis for several weeks now and so, this award does come at a good time for me. Thanks also to Ellie for nominating for my one previous award as well. 😉
As I feel a bit guilty for dumping that last post on your tonight (especially when it concerns an issue I should probably have resolved already), I’m going to present you with a second song for the evening.
In a recent 30 Days challenge, I wrote a letter to guitarist John Frusciante. In that note, I included a mention of how I would love to be able to play a song on my acoustic guitar. Tonight, I’m sharing that song with you! 🙂
It does skip a bit near the start (it’s not your computer) and, to compensate for that, I’m also going to share with you John’s acoustic recording of this same song, which used to be available as a free download from his website.